Lucky life in seasons

In every new season, we adjust to fit, and make life as bearable as possible. In this new season, I am tracing my steps forward and begin to reclaim parts that were so carelessly relinquished, in the name of loving or being loved. Re-evaluate time invested, and build friendships that are built on simple stems that you just know will grow tall in the knowing satisfaction that the sun feeds and inspires. Not one of loyalties deposited in small doses where equally selfish returns are imminent.

Life in my last season knocked me off my pretty seemingly sturdy feet, held me upside down like a new born and shook every gadget of security, notions, and my insides out all on the bare floor to stare me in the face and had me saying; wow, I dont know half as much as I think I know, and who really does anyway?! and maybe I can't really do everything alone, as I thought I could. There is freedom in this realization, that forced me to step on the brakes, and turn off the engine.

Yes, I do want to do it all, Yes, I want to do better if not best at work, and basically everything (lofty right?), and yes, I want to go to a good graduate school. Yes, I do hope to change some things about the world, make a difference in my own way, starting with whats' inside, out and around me. But for now, I realized that I just need to sit very very still and make some hard choices, some of which includes putting my health first, take control of my thoughts and be more intentional about my time. Essentially learning "How to Live in the Land of Enough" in as many ways as possible.

Life is indeed in seasons, in begining a new, more aware and lucky one, I'll borrow Gerald Stern's words...
"Lucky life is like this. Lucky there is an ocean to come to. Lucky you can judge yourself in this water. Lucky you can be purified over and over again. Lucky there is the same cleanliness for everyone. Lucky life is like that. Luck life. Oh lucky life. Oh lucky lucky life. Lucky life."

Since lucky life is just like that.